matriculation centre...

hey...
its been a while since ive been here..
tons and tons of works to do..
sob3... this is why i hate studying...
haahaha..
but other parts were great..

anyway,
i was accepted to cfs,iium..
centre for foundation studies of iium...
hurm, it was back in 2005 if im not mistaken...
july maybe...
it was one hectic week...
well, its normal to have orientation and all the talks that we have to attend..
its killing us...
haha.. but we went thru it well.. (",)

eventho it was only a short period..
but it really gives me a big impact..
changed me a lot..
its the place where i found my true love..
at least that was what i thought..
but yeah,
i was wrong...

back then i was telling myself not to fall in love..
never during study time..
wait til the graduation day arrives...
but the curiosity..
the feeling of being needed and to need someone is damn strong...
and i did fall in love..

he's a nice guy...
this one i can say..
but maybe its not fated that we should be together..
it really hurts..
not just a small cut..
but big enough to actually tear my world apart...

it was nearly 3 years...
being in love...
and it ended when i was already in main campus...
hurm... 3 years are long..
long enough to give a terrible ache to your heart...
i was startled, lose my vision and trembling each day..
cant even stand on my own feet...
its how i remember..
the pain that is left over..
its not as severe as before...
but im sure it is still here..
deep down inside..