sometimes there are laughter everywhere..

but a lot of time will be tears..

we can fake laughter..

we can also fake the tears..

after all we are the actors and actresses in this world..

we have been given a role to play..

whether we do it wisely or do it with style..

our pick..

but as for me,

did i get my pick?

or did i not..

i dont know..

im just being me..

whatever is written..

just go with the flow..

i dont even know whats wrong or whats right for me..

its like blurry and cant choose..

well,

im sure ill find my way someday..

been asking from Him everyday..

i think i have become a very monotone person right now

have no rhythm and whatsoever..

i have to get back on track..

just the matter of time..

???

hey...
im trying to get some sleep...
but there are a lot of things on my mind..
im trying to chill and let things clear..
but everything is a mess..
im lost in a way..
need direction..
but im not sure where to go..
i wanted to ask
but there are no one around..
what should i do?

Dear God,
im thankful that u gave me a lot of things..
and im thankful that u r still giving..
never stop..
sometimes maybe i asked too much
sometimes i might feel that evryhng is not enuf..
but then again,
i always ask myself..
have i done enough?
have i gave enough?
always asking for things, never accepts..
im sorry for this..

Please clear my mind n heart..
i need rest for a while..
what did i do wrong?
is this my fate?
really?
coz if it is,
i have to embrace it..
be sincere n accept things the way it should be..